After 2 and a half months India really felt good…… No feeling could be better to be back to your own country……. The rush at the immigration line, the flush not working in the public lavatories, no air conditioning at the airport etc …….. It just felt good to be back……. The feeling was not going to last too long…… When I touched down in Pune I realized what an independent person I was…….. I needed my space…..Loneliness was hard to handle in Germany but I loved my independence….. I could do anything without being answerable to no one……In college a thousand questions would be asked…..My room mates had a problem if I left the room for too long…..Other people had a problem with me….People felt that I had become more proud and arrogant………..Guess I would not be me if I was not arrogant….I have to admit I am arrogant and very proud or what I stand for…………..Seeing people and their behavior made me ask myself…….Do I really belong here? There is so much more to life than just running after w omen and fighting for women…….. People getting into fist fights…. It just made me feel that I was back in school……..

I started distancing myself from people(the guys who I used to hang out most with). Did they care I don’t think so…….When bread is snatched away when you are going for a piece I guess you are really not wanted……… And people still feel they are all cool and all…….. If the same thing were to happen to them the biggest branding contest would start in college…….The height of hypocrisy….. Guess no one will ever understand my feelings….. People around were too selfish……When they have work call…Otherwise who would care…. All the friends who I did call used just sugar coated words to make me feel that I was being missed…… Guess that is what increased my expectations…….. Never have expectations in life and you will never get hurt……..